Friday, November 9, 2012

Time Out


frost every morning since ritual and we wait now for the first winter storm. The snowstorm after the hurricane
wind storm. And then the weather should be warm again.
Winter light
Evenings are dark early this end of daylight time, time after Samhain, timeless time, time of darkness, time of silence.
Until the wind blows.

windblown
No snow for us this storm either but downstate is once again hammered. People are cold and without power.
Electrical power.
connections
There has been much heart flutters and twitching muscles for what seems like weeks or maybe a season.
Electrical impulses, press and release, fear and wait. Power.
Electoral cycles, earth cycles, life cycles.
  last light   stormy sky
Winter is clearly here, summer has ended
and I rarely want to leave the house.
Energy conservation and hibernation.

When yesterday was today it was the day after and we all breathed.
We clapped and danced by the wood stove
our main energy source
in the center under the pyramid.

Taking out the last food sacrifice,
closing a week of dumb suppers
offered to passing dead
to comfort their travels,
its bioactive hissss a promise of beginning:
fermentation.

Powerless until we had power,
covering and planning for dark or light,
We cooked some food and wandered, slightly lost,
once again normal with electricity.
sunlight in the willowFinally the first sunny day in forever, or at least from the time of days filled with hurricane from anticipation to aftermath, dawned earlier through the end of daylight savings, though there is rarely any extra sleep anymore.

Rising easily prepared to clean,
now with no worry of running out,
we plan for no other people, but
Electronically communicating we find ways to connect.

Crafting the fire, with many leaves to control, we set up ritual space.
Sun shines strong, but far in the south at what would have been noon the day before.

Boy outside half-hidden in the branches of bare shrubs and our friend arrives wearing sweaters and coat and gloves and hat and boots and 2 pairs of pants and a scarf.
Bryan is barefoot.
We all get barefoot.
The earth is actually warm-ish.
feet mandala
Forgetting things we get ready and get ready more, we eat our dessert first, and make more coffee.
Powered up.

sacrifice assembled

We are already here, in sacred space with the fire. Begin.

Be- with our feet feeling the earth and roots going down holding firm to the ground and the sun streaming into our heads going up and the in-between.
Birds sing.

A whole jar of milk for our Earth Mother, the cream removed from the top as sacrifice for our dear Bridget.
Pomegranate quarters for the directions. The East- the new day and that energy of light and power but not where the sun rises now in these ever wintering days; the South- where the sun is now at midday, the flowing energy of our emotions and caring, our environmental lessons (hello Hurricane Sandy); the West- place of our neighbors, the direction of the setting sun, that introspection and death, the brown bear and our hibernation, the peach tree; and the North- oh winter, place of winds and of healing and nor’easters and the white and purple and quiet.
and the above and the below and the center.

That which goes down and is the place of gathering below, where the waters all go to, that well.
The vertical and that which goes up,
flexible like our spine, sacred tree.
And the center, our fire, place of transformation and consuming energy.

Beer for Mananan, thanks for keeping the gates,
for guiding those between the worlds.
Cream and dried herbs from our garden for Bridget,
our concord grapes for our Kindred.
And some extra beer for our honored dead,
ancestors we are here because of you.
Thank you.

Each of us two women making our offerings cycling through the gates
from fire to well to tree
from tree to well to fire.
consuming sacrifice
Final thanks and sacrifice of the rest of our concords and all the spent seeds, package by package, their pictures of flowers or veggies slowly consumed by the flame as the grapes swelled and shined with heat.
 flame in the air   pole beans   cabbage
popped corn, steamed grapes, smoldering smoke
Taking pictures & taking omens & the corn popping out
of the fire. What we see and what we don’t see.
Hidden images and messages dancing above and through the gates. As the veil is thinnest. Pay attention.
fire omen #1- faces   fire omen #2- faces  
fire omen #3- faces
  Runes & Ogham & Virtue Cards, especially at this season.

from the Ancestors   from the Spirits of Nature & Place
  from the Gods & Goddesses  for the Season
omen casting
the Virtues
But also the scrying, the light through the orb.
There is no real way to capture that spirit, that energy;
in the same way that I cannot recreate the moment of ritual in words moments or days or weeks later.
But we try anyway.
scrying in the East the East
scrying in the South the South
scrying in the West the West
scrying in the North the North

There was really only light and life in the north/south axis, the east/west has harder to see.
And between the South and the West, more people arrived, a friend and her 7 year old daughter who immediately took off her shoes at the circle and walked in the stream to our sacred well.
The augury of barefeet, of light, of power and energy.

our omens
from our Ancestors-Eihwaz, the death’s crook, the spindle, often the yew tree, the axis on which everything turns
from the Spirits of Nature & Place-Perthro, the lottery cup or chance, luck
from the Gods & Godesses-Ehwaz, the horse, the partnership and the ability to do, horsepower, vehicle
for the Season-Raido, communications and travel, traveling of a circuit

the Ogham was Saille or Willow, our sacred tree, the only one still with leaves, still alive and flexible through the storms

for the Body the virtue is PIETY
for the Spirit the virtue is COURAGE
for the Mind the virtue is INTEGRITY

Hallowing and sharing our waters,
mothers sharing glasses with their children,
always joyous and refreshing.
cauldron emptied
Thanks with a jar of coffee and can of beer.
Hugs all around.

Too many women in the kitchen for the guys who cycled through the snacks whenever possible for brief interludes. We ate our cheeses and chutney and apple crisp together.

Saille - the Willow, our sacred tree
pumpkins 2012

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Samhain approaches- a perfect storm

Samhain card

With the coming of the first frost, the harvest is ended.
In this ending is our New Year’s beginning.
We see our future rooted in our past,
as life grows out of death.
Our reverence for life brings us to honor the dead as we enter the dark half of the year.

Come celebrate summer’s end, the season of Samhain, passings and our dead.

After the storms, after the parties, before the elections
we will gather on Sunday November 4th 11am
to put a close to the holiday
to share our harvest
to offer our gratitude
and to begin our New Year.

potluck to follow ritual
please RSVP for more info & directions
info@bryanperrinstudio.com

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Equinox

egg on omphalos

Egg dripping dripping dripping

No longer are there sounds at night- birds, bugs are silent. only the winds, the winter winds begin.
We wake and it is barely light. The long night beckons.

Setting up all day on the actual equinox, at the exact time balancing our egg and doing a small family gathering- just the 3 of us (and Max the cat)- balanced first in the kitchen and then together just going to the nemeton, just to look and to be and to offer and feel our balance together.

lighting equinox   Max watcheshand, flame, egg & Max    dripping flame

the sound of a single raven flying.

all day setting up, clearing the way, gathering sacrifice. burning candles of gratitude and prosperity all day.

and when the rains came just before dark they still burned.
walking outside just in time to see the last flash of flaring flame of gratitude before it extinguished as a leaf slowly drifted down. the money flame, protected by glass, rose and fell for a long time in the drenching storm.
I watched protected by our new entranceway, art crafted as is the rest of our home from branches and reclaimed wood and stones and graced with an ancient horseshoe gifted by our friend.
This candle fought the rain and the pool of wax, opening like a flower or our hearts, fed it with splashes of fuel. Finally the flame went but glowed like an ember beyond me moving inside.

flame of gratitudeflame of prosperity

Equinox as opening and closing doors. Allowing all that you need.

On the morning of our ritual I woke rested for the first time in a while, put the oven on, did yoga, and vacuumed. Cleaned the bathroom even before coffee.
Hosting ritual is so much more than our intent, than our sacrifices for the Kindreds. Sometimes more than the time we spend the day before and after. Sometimes the hosting is a daily practice or a yearning or a constant worry.
But always it is the cleaning, sweeping the threshold so all who arrive feel welcome and honored.

basket of stuff  gathered

Carrying baskets of stuff out through the woods to the nemeton. The iris reeds grabbed by the birch branches and scattered. Shaking the seeds of flowers everywhere.

“Thanks, this is my purpose.”

inside and outside
the warmth of the sun pulling that in.

What does the harvest mean?
A gathering of friends? of community?
Being able to go to your neighbor’s garden, when she is not even there, to pick vegetables to fill out a salad?
Making pesto off the cuff in a group?
Expanding kitchen.

Our group came at extended times- first Kevin, who often seems like a spirit gifted directly from the gods; then Susan, herself a goddess of calm, healing and joy; then phone calls of ‘we are on our way’ from Jill and Raf, friends of both generations of our family and each with an intensity of creative spirit; and Mj, our brother from another mother. The day was fine as was the pumpkin bread which lasted throughout the fine discussion of the season which lasted until all arrived.

Why are we here and now?
Bryan brought out paintings as illustrations of our discussion- the feedback loops. What do we choose? How do we define our balance?
When is positive just another negative?


Talking and hearing, listening to what is around us.
Taking time to tour the gardens or what is left of them, tasting the last fruits, admiring autumn blooming.

late blooming suzies

We are here to honor the gods, gods who give meaning to life.

ringing the gong from both sides.

processing in a vague meandering line to the woods.

blue jays and crows caw.

nemeton autumn equinox 2012

gifted feathers for our directions.
motherwort vinegar for our Earth mother
turkey neck, skin hanging in strips for the Outsiders
garlic for our healing Bridget
wine and food for our Kindred,
with the ‘pope’s nose’ prize fat for the Gods

sacred fire  glow within us

firefalls

Sitting on a rock
balancing on 2 warm rocks
feel yourself here now.

balancing rocks

the cat going right through the portals, checking out the fire, the waters, the sacrifice
fearless and open

fulcrum of fire

A balancing point, the stillness of just about.
The fulcrum of now and the simple noise of not yet winter but no longer summer.

autumn equinox omens

Joy from our Ancestors
Hail from the spirits-destruction for something new
Self from the Gods & Goddesses-feeling the Gods inside us
The Sun from the season
Straif –the Black Thorn as our Ogham. the traditional Shillelagh wood- defense or protection or force 

Cascading water as final sacrifice in case there was any forgotten

feel your ability to draw up from the earth and to draw down from the sun.
feel the air on your skin, feel the earth against your body, in your body.

virtues

the Hospitality of the Body
the Fertility of the Mind
the Moderation of the Spirit

moss path   thru the woods

Processing back through the dappled light of the woods. 
Linda showing up just in time for feasting.
Intermingling of people already friends without knowing it. Lots of apple pies.
Yoga on the land.

warming fire

And at the end, sitting by the warming fire with the turtle eggs while Bryan was in the nemeton burning everything that was left.

remains